today i realized that m=no matter what i do or say. I don't seem to find love. I had it twice and lost it in a second. And now just a thing i have that is not even close to love or like... Y can't have the one i love???? some time I want to run away to a place where I don't know no one... And start fresh again... I know no matter what I do I will always have him as a friend... I don;t want to lose him at all... He is the only one that have been their for me really no matter if i was... I want to yellll!!!!!!!!!! so yeah I kinda feel much better yay....