noone sees the tears i hide
behind my lying eyes
noone knows the pain i feel
i cover it with a smile
and i dont wanna give up
but im tired
im breaking on the inside
another day and im still breathing
i feel like such a waste
i guess im here for a laugh
thats better than nothing
im tired of doubt
and fear
and tears
and feeling alone
why am i here.
does anyone want me
ME
idk

today i realized that m=no matter what i do or say. I don't seem to find love. I had it twice and lost it in a second. And now just a thing i have that is not even close to love or like... Y can't have the one i love???? some time I want to run away to a place where I don't know no one... And start fresh again... I know no matter what I do I will always have him as a friend... I don;t want to lose him at all... He is the only one that have been their for me really no matter if i was... I want to yellll!!!!!!!!!! so yeah I kinda feel much better yay....

I this weekend could say change my point view..... I know I fuck up nasty but jet again am still doing it. love can be difficult, confusing, crazy, point is am in love but.... yea... I want you... I need you... come back... please... I'll be with you so u wont be alone....

I moved out out of the house a week ago... Finally I decide to leave the my house with the help of my patito... Am happy cux my free now in some way. But tat the same time sad. My feeling are all confuse.. I guess it because I left my house in a bad time... When everything was falling apart. I don't know How long am going to feel like this. Theirs things that I need to let go... But I can't. I need advice. I guess in other words I don't know whats next???????